some ppl will say, money!! loads and loads of money!!
power? some may say that... or even beautiful wife/ hubby....big house? yeah?
good health? long life?
i have no idea! totally no idea what is my desire.....feels like a zombie, aimless, goalless....as a matter of fact, an actual walking zombie....no idea at all what i desire....what i need.....what to do with the balance of my life....no idea how long do i need to continue to be a zombie....no idea when can i leave this world....
Once there was a fortune teller told me that my life is great! no "fan nau", nothing to worry about....he even told me that he wans my life.....but i guess everyone never appreciate what they have.....because im not happy with my life.....though most of the time im happy, because do not think or worry much......but when i stop and think, then only will realize how bad my life is compare to most people....i have many friends whom i think tends to thinks or worry too much...too pessimistic....but when u come to think bout it, they have desires, goals, aims....therefore they worry they cant achieve the goals.....but when you have zero goals, what is the use of keep on living? just to occupy a few feets on this earth?
as a matter of fact, i have no idea what i would prefer if god asked me before i was born....u wan to be happy ur whole life and have no worries and pass your life steadily till u die or u wan to have many many goals and most are tough ones so that u will keep on strive to meet your goals? wonder what answer will i give?
I think I'm like you.. Goal-less, aimless... But I have commitment.. which made my life miserable, tons of worries and anxieties...
ReplyDeletesometime have commitment push u to go on...these are the things that pull u thru when feels like letting go....
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