Just realize i have stop writing my blog for nearly 2 years...
Guess it is due to my "blindly" doing my online business...
This been a super extraordinary year for me....been telling my friends that i "die ki no regret" :)
Hike the miracle mountain, promotion to management level, run 2 marathons and 1 on THE bridge...
Never in my life, expected to be in a business....
Never in my life, expected to be a manager....
Never in my life, expected to hike KK....
Really thankful for my life route... no idea who should i thanks, but whoever it is, THANKS.... :)
All those unexpected happens, without any planning from my self and they just happens, and ends beautifully...
What more can i ask for? Nothing...
I have no wish to make on my birthday....should give the wish to other who need them more.....
Just wanna say im happy :)
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Friday, October 1, 2010
Sand bag
i refuse to be a sand bag...
there's a small question that the whole universe cant answer....
how come we treat strangers with the utmost manner and politeness, but we take granted to those who cares for us? who give them the authority to even think that ppl close to us deserve to be sand bag?
no one deserve to be sand bag....
life philosophy: good deed deserve good return, bad deed, of course bad return.....
same life philosophy: ppl who cares for you deserve ur love, ppl who do bad things to you, deserve ur hatred...
why love ur enemy, when u cant even love ur loved ones?
simple task and yet so tough to do.....
there's a small question that the whole universe cant answer....
how come we treat strangers with the utmost manner and politeness, but we take granted to those who cares for us? who give them the authority to even think that ppl close to us deserve to be sand bag?
no one deserve to be sand bag....
life philosophy: good deed deserve good return, bad deed, of course bad return.....
same life philosophy: ppl who cares for you deserve ur love, ppl who do bad things to you, deserve ur hatred...
why love ur enemy, when u cant even love ur loved ones?
simple task and yet so tough to do.....
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Scary
went to pasar malam just now, on the road side, there was a commotion and many ppl gathering around....told my friend, must be selling dvd....but....
there was 3 indonesian guys been caught for stealing or pick pocket.....and being caught by a bunch of "black area" kids, they scold them and beat them....
asked my friend, wanna call up police, but then saw a guy just came down from motorcycle and pulled up a police vest.....
the 3 guys are wrong, but the ppl beating them are wrong too...
so scary.......
just like seeing a movie.....
there was 3 indonesian guys been caught for stealing or pick pocket.....and being caught by a bunch of "black area" kids, they scold them and beat them....
asked my friend, wanna call up police, but then saw a guy just came down from motorcycle and pulled up a police vest.....
the 3 guys are wrong, but the ppl beating them are wrong too...
so scary.......
just like seeing a movie.....
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Tired
Have u ever been tired of living?
All this while was thinking god created me with a mission, but am i that important? Or im just a robot passing through an empty life? an empty shell....and without knowing this, i just pass 30? 40? or 50 useless years?
Im so tired....
Tired....tired of worries.....
Tired....tired of laughing....
Tired....tired of talking......
Tired....tired of listening....
Tired....tired of breathing....
Tired....tired of living......
So so tired.....
Sometime so much wanna drop everything and just jump!
Sometime so much hoping that a car can just end my life in an instance.....
Is this bad thought?
Been living for 30years....thought that i will live alone after couple of years, and kinda scare of it, but came to think of it, been living alone for the past 30 years too....
No accomplishments, nobody, no happiness, no health....
Closing to 30 years old in 3 more days, will be getting loads of good health, good wealth, happiness....etc....wishes....but will i get those wishes? or the persom whom wish must wish full heartedly?
beginning to believe that wishes are useless, god was never there to listen to my wishes.....
One's destiny was destined before he or she was born, so what can god help? nothing....
Is like living on a stage.....life is just like stage, heard my friend said so, now i understand why, because the story was written, there was a script ready at hand....you cannot do other play, except following the script......following the script to continue your life, unless you end the play earlier than it should be.....
I do not wish much, just happiness to all my loved ones....my parents, my family, my close friends.....
Not sure this wish can be granted by god, but sure wish so.....
All this while was thinking god created me with a mission, but am i that important? Or im just a robot passing through an empty life? an empty shell....and without knowing this, i just pass 30? 40? or 50 useless years?
Im so tired....
Tired....tired of worries.....
Tired....tired of laughing....
Tired....tired of talking......
Tired....tired of listening....
Tired....tired of breathing....
Tired....tired of living......
So so tired.....
Sometime so much wanna drop everything and just jump!
Sometime so much hoping that a car can just end my life in an instance.....
Is this bad thought?
Been living for 30years....thought that i will live alone after couple of years, and kinda scare of it, but came to think of it, been living alone for the past 30 years too....
No accomplishments, nobody, no happiness, no health....
Closing to 30 years old in 3 more days, will be getting loads of good health, good wealth, happiness....etc....wishes....but will i get those wishes? or the persom whom wish must wish full heartedly?
beginning to believe that wishes are useless, god was never there to listen to my wishes.....
One's destiny was destined before he or she was born, so what can god help? nothing....
Is like living on a stage.....life is just like stage, heard my friend said so, now i understand why, because the story was written, there was a script ready at hand....you cannot do other play, except following the script......following the script to continue your life, unless you end the play earlier than it should be.....
I do not wish much, just happiness to all my loved ones....my parents, my family, my close friends.....
Not sure this wish can be granted by god, but sure wish so.....
Angle of Perspective
Heard a story before:
A man and his son was bringing their donkey to market for sale. Along the road, they met a lady whom ask: why let the small kid walks so far? he looks so tired, why don't let him sit on top of the donkey?" Therefore the man asked his son to sit on the donkey.
They go on walking....Then they met a middle age man whom ask "why you guys are stupid? u are going to sell off the donkey, why don't u two sit behind the donkey back?" Then the man go up joining his son behind the donkey back.
They go on walking.....Then they met an old man whom ask "you guys are so cruel to the animal, with both of your weights the animal cannot move at all!!" The man came down and ask his son to come down too....
Moral of the story:
Everyone looks at thing(s) from different perspective, no matter how right or wrong, who knows? why wanna do things per what OTHERS ask? Ask yourself, have you done anything wrong???
If no, then have no fear....no one can satisfy everyone else.....some will say you are wrong, some will say u have done right here, but wrong there.....
> Everyone find OTHER's fault, but never look through mirror for any fault....<
A man and his son was bringing their donkey to market for sale. Along the road, they met a lady whom ask: why let the small kid walks so far? he looks so tired, why don't let him sit on top of the donkey?" Therefore the man asked his son to sit on the donkey.
They go on walking....Then they met a middle age man whom ask "why you guys are stupid? u are going to sell off the donkey, why don't u two sit behind the donkey back?" Then the man go up joining his son behind the donkey back.
They go on walking.....Then they met an old man whom ask "you guys are so cruel to the animal, with both of your weights the animal cannot move at all!!" The man came down and ask his son to come down too....
Moral of the story:
Everyone looks at thing(s) from different perspective, no matter how right or wrong, who knows? why wanna do things per what OTHERS ask? Ask yourself, have you done anything wrong???
If no, then have no fear....no one can satisfy everyone else.....some will say you are wrong, some will say u have done right here, but wrong there.....
> Everyone find OTHER's fault, but never look through mirror for any fault....<
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
none
i used to be so childish type of person till i worry that i'll get bully when i go college time...
i really wanna be a child now....irresponsible child....child without anything to worry bout....a child with just the thought of making friends or enemy.... :)
no worry....no regrets.....no sadness....
sometime so much wanna end this lifetime to proceed to the next life and see whether i'll be blessed to be an animal.....to be a small little bird.....just fly............when im sad.......fly.......let the sadness goes with the wind....
been seeing loads of people who wants more and more daily.....never stop asking, never stop fighting......
just to get all the materialistic things....what'll happen with those things after u complete this lifetime?
many do not appreciate the bad luck that they receive.....those are blessed bad luck......as you've been prevented worst luck ever......
been in bad state before......as for me maybe worse luck ever....and i hope my bad luck will stay that way.....
do not reach the worst luck.......
people always say, nah.....im lucky enough, but from time to time they'll cry over a small bad luck....they have not encountered worse luck.....i have.....and i do love the bad lucks im having now......
from my lifetime experience i believe that i've done really bad things in my past to deserve such worse luck in this lifetime........if i haven't paid enough, i wish god will let me go to my next life soon.....but can i? do i have to pay again in my next life?
what's it like to be dead? many people cant answer this, or should i say no human can answer this.....
from teaching, we know that we must do good deeds to earn good returns and vice versa.....does it worth it?
im such a weak person....cant fight....physically and mentally....
am i asking too much from god to end my life earlier? what do he have to lose? me not paying enough? does all my sufferings insufficient to pay for my past life faults?
im not sure how long can i stand....how long can i stop the evil from coming out of me......
why devil always sweet? why god only give sufferring? why god dont give the sufferring to bad people?
why they must have good life this lifetime because the past life been very good.....and this lifetime been bad.....and the cycle goes on? why god even created greed? why should there be an even a word for it?
why when u can read the future, why don't u prevent it? why create so much sufferring to the mankind whom you have created? i do not believe you love us...we are just like a big mice farm to you....an experimental farm..............
i really wanna be a child now....irresponsible child....child without anything to worry bout....a child with just the thought of making friends or enemy.... :)
no worry....no regrets.....no sadness....
sometime so much wanna end this lifetime to proceed to the next life and see whether i'll be blessed to be an animal.....to be a small little bird.....just fly............when im sad.......fly.......let the sadness goes with the wind....
been seeing loads of people who wants more and more daily.....never stop asking, never stop fighting......
just to get all the materialistic things....what'll happen with those things after u complete this lifetime?
many do not appreciate the bad luck that they receive.....those are blessed bad luck......as you've been prevented worst luck ever......
been in bad state before......as for me maybe worse luck ever....and i hope my bad luck will stay that way.....
do not reach the worst luck.......
people always say, nah.....im lucky enough, but from time to time they'll cry over a small bad luck....they have not encountered worse luck.....i have.....and i do love the bad lucks im having now......
from my lifetime experience i believe that i've done really bad things in my past to deserve such worse luck in this lifetime........if i haven't paid enough, i wish god will let me go to my next life soon.....but can i? do i have to pay again in my next life?
what's it like to be dead? many people cant answer this, or should i say no human can answer this.....
from teaching, we know that we must do good deeds to earn good returns and vice versa.....does it worth it?
im such a weak person....cant fight....physically and mentally....
am i asking too much from god to end my life earlier? what do he have to lose? me not paying enough? does all my sufferings insufficient to pay for my past life faults?
im not sure how long can i stand....how long can i stop the evil from coming out of me......
why devil always sweet? why god only give sufferring? why god dont give the sufferring to bad people?
why they must have good life this lifetime because the past life been very good.....and this lifetime been bad.....and the cycle goes on? why god even created greed? why should there be an even a word for it?
why when u can read the future, why don't u prevent it? why create so much sufferring to the mankind whom you have created? i do not believe you love us...we are just like a big mice farm to you....an experimental farm..............
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