Tired

Have u ever been tired of living?
All this while was thinking god created me with a mission, but am i that important? Or im just a robot passing through an empty life? an empty shell....and without knowing this, i just pass 30? 40? or 50 useless years?
Im so tired....
Tired....tired of worries.....
Tired....tired of laughing....
Tired....tired of talking......
Tired....tired of listening....
Tired....tired of breathing....
Tired....tired of living......

So so tired.....
Sometime so much wanna drop everything and just jump!
Sometime so much hoping that a car can just end my life in an instance.....
Is this bad thought?
Been living for 30years....thought that i will live alone after couple of years, and kinda scare of it, but came to think of it, been living alone for the past 30 years too....

No accomplishments, nobody, no happiness, no health....
Closing to 30 years old in 3 more days, will be getting loads of good health, good wealth, happiness....etc....wishes....but will i get those wishes? or the persom whom wish must wish full heartedly?
beginning to believe that wishes are useless, god was never there to listen to my wishes.....
One's destiny was destined before he or she was born, so what can god help? nothing....
Is like living on a stage.....life is just like stage, heard my friend said so, now i understand why, because the story was written, there was a script ready at hand....you cannot do other play, except following the script......following the script to continue your life, unless you end the play earlier than it should be.....

I do not wish much, just happiness to all my loved ones....my parents, my family, my close friends.....
Not sure this wish can be granted by god, but sure wish so.....

Angle of Perspective

Heard a story before:
A man and his son was bringing their donkey to market for sale. Along the road, they met a lady whom ask: why let the small kid walks so far? he looks so tired, why don't let him sit on top of the donkey?" Therefore the man asked his son to sit on the donkey.
They go on walking....Then they met a middle age man whom ask "why you guys are stupid? u are going to sell off the donkey, why don't u two sit behind the donkey back?" Then the man go up joining his son behind the donkey back.
They go on walking.....Then they met an old man whom ask "you guys are so cruel to the animal, with both of your weights the animal cannot move at all!!" The man came down and ask his son to come down too....
Moral of the story:
Everyone looks at thing(s) from different perspective, no matter how right or wrong, who knows? why wanna do things per what OTHERS ask? Ask yourself, have you done anything wrong???
If no, then have no fear....no one can satisfy everyone else.....some will say you are wrong, some will say u have done right here, but wrong there.....

> Everyone find OTHER's fault, but never look through mirror for any fault....<