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i used to be so childish type of person till i worry that i'll get bully when i go college time...
i really wanna be a child now....irresponsible child....child without anything to worry bout....a child with just the thought of making friends or enemy.... :)
no worry....no regrets.....no sadness....
sometime so much wanna end this lifetime to proceed to the next life and see whether i'll be blessed to be an animal.....to be a small little bird.....just fly............when im sad.......fly.......let the sadness goes with the wind....
been seeing loads of people who wants more and more daily.....never stop asking, never stop fighting......
just to get all the materialistic things....what'll happen with those things after u complete this lifetime?
many do not appreciate the bad luck that they receive.....those are blessed bad luck......as you've been prevented worst luck ever......
been in bad state before......as for me maybe worse luck ever....and i hope my bad luck will stay that way.....
do not reach the worst luck.......
people always say, nah.....im lucky enough, but from time to time they'll cry over a small bad luck....they have not encountered worse luck.....i have.....and i do love the bad lucks im having now......
from my lifetime experience i believe that i've done really bad things in my past to deserve such worse luck in this lifetime........if i haven't paid enough, i wish god will let me go to my next life soon.....but can i? do i have to pay again in my next life?
what's it like to be dead? many people cant answer this, or should i say no human can answer this.....
from teaching, we know that we must do good deeds to earn good returns and vice versa.....does it worth it?
im such a weak person....cant fight....physically and mentally....
am i asking too much from god to end my life earlier? what do he have to lose? me not paying enough? does all my sufferings insufficient to pay for my past life faults?
im not sure how long can i stand....how long can i stop the evil from coming out of me......
why devil always sweet? why god only give sufferring? why god dont give the sufferring to bad people?
why they must have good life this lifetime because the past life been very good.....and this lifetime been bad.....and the cycle goes on? why god even created greed? why should there be an even a word for it?
why when u can read the future, why don't u prevent it? why create so much sufferring to the mankind whom you have created? i do not believe you love us...we are just like a big mice farm to you....an experimental farm..............