Tired

Have u ever been tired of living?
All this while was thinking god created me with a mission, but am i that important? Or im just a robot passing through an empty life? an empty shell....and without knowing this, i just pass 30? 40? or 50 useless years?
Im so tired....
Tired....tired of worries.....
Tired....tired of laughing....
Tired....tired of talking......
Tired....tired of listening....
Tired....tired of breathing....
Tired....tired of living......

So so tired.....
Sometime so much wanna drop everything and just jump!
Sometime so much hoping that a car can just end my life in an instance.....
Is this bad thought?
Been living for 30years....thought that i will live alone after couple of years, and kinda scare of it, but came to think of it, been living alone for the past 30 years too....

No accomplishments, nobody, no happiness, no health....
Closing to 30 years old in 3 more days, will be getting loads of good health, good wealth, happiness....etc....wishes....but will i get those wishes? or the persom whom wish must wish full heartedly?
beginning to believe that wishes are useless, god was never there to listen to my wishes.....
One's destiny was destined before he or she was born, so what can god help? nothing....
Is like living on a stage.....life is just like stage, heard my friend said so, now i understand why, because the story was written, there was a script ready at hand....you cannot do other play, except following the script......following the script to continue your life, unless you end the play earlier than it should be.....

I do not wish much, just happiness to all my loved ones....my parents, my family, my close friends.....
Not sure this wish can be granted by god, but sure wish so.....